Friday, August 6, 2010

"All of You is more than enough..."

"All of You is more than enough
for all of me...
For every thirst and every need
You satisfy me with Your love.
And all I have in You
is more than enough..."

- Chris Tomlin & Louis Giglio

I hope you enjoy this video of Chris Tomlin introducing his song, "Enough."  If you would like to skip forward to the performance of this song, it starts at the 2:55 mark.  But if you choose to watch the entire clip, I think you will see how it relates to this story:

It happened just last night.  We were sitting in church.  In conducting the service, I'd pulled together the readings, straight from the questions that were in my heart:  "What do I really need?"  "When will I know that I have enough?" 

Using those questions as my starting point, I'd felt divinely led...as if on a journey through the Bible, and Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures by Mary Baker Eddy...to find the message God intended for our worship service...and for me.  I'd felt inspired, but the questions still loomed large. 

Once I'd finished readings the selections, and we'd joined in silent prayer, I led the congregation in the praying aloud of the Lord's Prayer.  And it was the line, "Give us this day, our daily bread" that I found myself focusing on with a genuine hunger.  

And after we sang the second hymn, and I'd read the announcements before opening the meeting for the sharing of gratitude, inspiration and testimonies of healing, I led off with sharing a brief healing experience I'd had earlier in the summer.  I was so grateful for what I'd learned, but my questions...the ones that had led me to the readings and hymns for that service, were still hanging in the air like cottonwood seed on a Colorado summer morning. 

And that was when my friend, Andrew...sitting on the sofa in the half-light of a late summer evening...shared a stunning idea, one that answered my question so perfectly that it was as if I'd posed my query directly to him,  and he'd taken it to God, only to come back with the perfect response.

Andrew started his remarks, by sharing gratitude for what he was learning from the inmates during his volunteer visits at a local jail.  And then, out of the blue, he referred back to one of the statements I'd read, twice...that night, from Science and Health, as the definition to the word, "enough" (in context):

"Unfathomable Mind is expressed.
The depth, breadth, height, might, majesty,
and glory of infinite Love fill all space.
That is enough!"

It actually took my breath away.  It was as if little prickles of energy and a million fireflies were lighting up my insides.  I actually think I may have gasped. 

This was the answer...the simple and direct answer...I had been looking for. 

As I'd prepared for the service, there were two words that had kept poking at me:  need, and enough. 

I knew what I most needed. Again from Mary Baker Eddy:

"What we most need is the fervent desire for growth in grace,
expressed in patience, meekness, love, and good deeds."

And this had long become my answer. When suggestions came from within, "I need to know what is next." or "I need to feel thus, and so...peace, comfort, love...you name it."   When those false "needs" would project themselves as conditions to my peace, with Eddy's direction, it had become easier and easier to claim, "No, what I really need is the burning desire for growth in grace...expressed in patience, meekness, love, and good deeds."

But the answer to the questions, "What is enough?"  "When will I have enough?"  "What would enough look like?"  For those questions, I didn't seem to have an answer that satisfied my hunger for something simple, clear, comprehensive, practical...and most importantly...spiritual.

But Andrew's answer (which, I later discovered had been shared with him, by his teacher in Christian Science) met all of those criteria...perfectly. And I claimed it, immediately, for myself as one of my five smooth stones for taking down the Goliath suggestion of, "never enough..." 

And I have discovered, that it is truly one of the most wonderful spiritual tools to have at the ready.  When the inner critic tries to say I don't have enough, I never will have enough, or that I wouldn't know enough if it bit me on the nose, I can so purely and peacefully go back to:

"The depth, breadth, height, might, majesty,
and glory of infinite Love fill all space."

Do I need more money, more information, more praise, more entertainment, more comfort...more, more, more? No, what I need...what I really, and truly, and practically need more of, every moment...is growth in grace...patience, meekness, love and good deeds.  And the depth, breadth, height, might, majesty, and glory of infinite Love filling all space is exactly what will meet that need.  In fact, it is the only thing that can, or will, eversatisfy that which we "most need."

That is my "enough."  It will always be enough.  Love filling all space.  Love filling every heart.  Love filling every moment with opportunity for self-realization.  Love satisfying every need to trust more, and worry less.  Love filling every "wrathful and afflictive" experience with the opportunity to entertain angels Love filling the earth with the gladness of growth, the affluence of freshness, the height, might, majesty, and glory of infinite beauty and grace..  It is enough. It is always enough.   

with Love,

Kate


[photo credit:  Nathaniel Wilder 2010]

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