Showing posts with label tropism. Show all posts
Showing posts with label tropism. Show all posts

Thursday, December 1, 2016

"lean in toward the light..."



"the shadows of the world will say,
there's no hope -- why try anyway.
every kindness large or slight,
shifts the balance towards the light..."

I am living in a Carrie Newcomer-scored world of hope these days. Her recording of "Lean in Toward the Light." is my get-up-and-go song.

This afternoon my husband and his friend let me crash the tail end of their weekly deep dive into all manner of wonderful subjects. One of the things they were discussing was the concept of sacred truths. I was enthralled.  I could have listened for hours.  As I drove home, I thought about my own sacred cache of truths -- those things that I know to be true in my deepest part of my heart.

Over the last few years, I've done a lot of spiritual housecleaning. I've begun to differentiate between ideas that I find fascinating, stirring, and inspiring -- ideas that I like to ponder and explore, and those that I absolutely know -- and trust -- with every cell of my being. It's a small cadre of spiritual laws, but I lean into them without reservation.

One of those laws is something I think of as "spiritual tropism." As a teacher I remember learning about tropism in order to substitute for a fifth grade plant biology class. I was fascinated.  How did I miss this lesson when I was in middle school?  Webster defines tropism as: "the involuntary turning of all or part of an organism in a particular direction in response to an external stimulus." Think of a leaf turning towards the light, or roots reaching towards water.

This is not a choice made by the plant -- it's leaves, or its root system. It is not something that the plant can resist. It just is. It is a law.

For me, spiritual tropism is the involuntary movement of humanity towards God, Love.  It is seen in an involuntary turning towards goodness, beauty, order, honesty, kindness -- any manifestation of God's presence. This gives me great hope. Because if there is anything that I am absolutely certain of, it is this law. It is a sacred Truth for me -- the irresistible law of Love calling us into alignment with Itself.

This has been especially important to me as a mom. If I were to allow myself to think about my children going out into a world full of moral uncertainty and random unkindness, I would be paralyzed with fear. But when I think of this irresistible law, I am filled with a mother tiger-like fierceness.  For me, affirming the self-enforcing nature of this law -- for every human being on earth -- is a sacred demand.

This was never more powerful for me than when our daughter went to live in post-apartheid South Africa. This was a country in transition. Our daughter was still a teenager. Reports of angry young men preying on young women were ubiquitous. But spiritual tropism was a law. I leaned into it with all my heart. Trusting that the inner qualities of honor, integrity, innocence, and purity were more compelling than anger or lust was a lifeline to my peace. It still is.

As a neighbor and global citizen, I know I must stay firm in my defense of man's inalienable right to be governed by this law.  I cannot afford the luxury of believing that this involuntary call to goodness is a human choice, rather than an ever-operative law.  No matter how much it may look like a plant may have turned away from the light and twisted itself towards the dark, I know -- without a doubt -- that this is only an illusion.

I know that the plant is unable to turn away from the light. Because I understand phototropism as law, I never wonder if suddenly the sunflower will turn away from the light. It has no self-volition. I never worry about rogue flowers or trees.  I am confident in the power of light to draw every plant cell to itself. And because I understand the law of hydrotropism -- the roots of a plant will always seek out water -- I never wonder if the roots of a tree will suddenly start poking through the ground and reaching for the sky.

I feel the same way about each of us. We are impelled to grow in grace, to seek out good, to reach for love, to love honesty, to appreciate beauty, to trust truth.  I trust this law with all my heart.

It is one of my most treasured sacred truths. In its presence I feel secure. In its presence I rest.


offered with Love,


Kate

Thursday, September 20, 2012

"Moonshadow, moonshadow..."


"Oh I'm being followed by a moonshadow,
 moonshadow, moonshadow.
Leapin' and hoppin' on a moonshadow, 
moonshadow, moonshadow..."


It was 1971.   Cat Stevens' "Teaser and the Firecat" album played on the living room turntable so often, that our dad threatened to break it into a million little pieces if he had to hear "Moonshadow" again.  We didn't believe him...the album did not survive.  So, we saved our pennies and bought another one.  This time we were smarter.  We didn't subject dad to lyrics he thought were mind-numbingly inane, but which we considered absolutely transcendental. 


I still love this album, and moonshadows...


I love the way moonbeams play a path of light across the sea.  I could sit and watch their soft glow till dawn.  There is something almost hypnotic, and deeply poetic, in their gentleness.  The shadows cast by moonlight seem to have kinder edges.  Nothing seems sharp, bright or harsh in the presence of the moon. 


But I've started to notice something about my love for all things mooncast.  Something that reaches down towards a place of deeper spiritual self-awareness.  I have long-lived by "borrowed light."  And moonlight is, for all its beauty,  borrowed light.  

The moon has no luminance of its own.  The moon only shines by the light it reflects from the sun.   There is no energy, no warmth, no inner radiance coming off the moon.  The moon is actually cold and dark. 


Lovely to look at.  But still, no light of its own. 

The sun, on the other hand is not easy to look at.  

The sun, however, is a direct source of light, energy, warmth.  It has the power to urge cell growth, photosynthesis, produce energy, define the seasons, insist evaporation, and through phototropism encourage the direction of plant growth.  

Direct light rocks the universe.  

Yes, the moon's borrowed light is lovely, inspiring, poetic.  But it's only power is a tidal ebbing and flowing...what the ancients referred to as lunacy.   The tidal pushing and pulling of emotions, societies, bio-systems.     

You may wonder where all this is coming from, where it is leading, and why it has...literally...has me stopped in my tracks.  I think it is because I've spent most of my life living by borrowed light, and thinking it would make me grow.  

Analogously, my expectations for moonlight were not fair to the moon.  The moon, itself, wasn't promising me anything more than a lovely glow.  But, I've been looking to the moon for something it could never give me...sunlight to grow by. 

I've read thousands of books, prolifically quoted the world's great thought-leaders, explored the philosophies, doctrines, and theories of inspired teachers, sages, and scientists...but is this what I'm seeking.   Not really.  What I really want, is to be transformed by "the renewing of the mind," as Paul encourages.   And, for me at least, that can only be done through a direct relationship with the source of all light, inspiration, true knowing...Mind, God. 

As inspired, beautiful, lovely, evocative as all those books, quotes, ideas, and insights have been...they are not my life-transforming truth.  They are the truths that have come to other seekers,  in their moments of communion with God.   

Now, I know how hard it is to not want to share insights and inspiration that have been life-altering to you....I'm doing it here.  And I soooo enjoy watching the colors, textures, and poetry of what, are for me, beautiful thought-paintings...images flowing onto the waiting page -- or, in this case, screen.  

But there is a difference between pouring out (or soaking in) the inspired beauty and glow of borrowed light, and being transformed by direct light.  

If I am reading someone else's inspiration, I might find it amazing, inspiring, astounding...but it will not transform me, or cause me to grow, change, transform. 

 Just as moonbeams...no matter how bright and beautiful they are...will not cause your tomatoes to grow, your trees to photosynthesize, or water to evaporate and re-cycle.  Indirect inspiration can only, at its best, inspire me to seek the Source of that light myself.   And often, it does.  But it can never replace going to the Source myself.

Moonbeams inspire me to write poetry, ponder the heavens, sing lullabies, and bask in the touch of the sea at my ankles...back and forth, back and forth...against the beach.  And I love, love, love these examples of reflected light.  

But when it comes to growing, I need the sun.  I need direct light.  

I've been wrestling with this for months now.  Do I continue to share quotes?  Do I persist in writing these stories? 

The quotes, not so much right now.  The stories, I think for a while yet, with this disclaimer...they are not direct light.  They are the natural effect of turning one's face towards the Sun. 

You may enjoy these stories, but I do not believe that you will grow spiritually (or in any other way) by reading them.  I can only reflect what I am seeing....sometimes funny, often beautiful, and, occasionally, insightful.   I share them with you, as I would share my appreciation for the dance of moonlight on water.   


I can point out the old man's face in the surface of the moon,  the sun's illumination distant craters, my interpretation of what I think it symbolizes for me.  You, in turn, may be led to share, with me, insights from what you are seeing through the moon's softer light.  

And perhaps in our mutual sharing, we'll each be more interested in discovering the Truth about where all that glowingly lovely light is actually coming from....to seek the Source.  But we aren't going to grow in moonlight.   

The Light that causes growth...well, you've gotta go to the Source.  

Jesus replies, when asked where to find the kingdom of heaven, 

"Neither lo here, or lo there, 
behold, the kingdom of heaven 
is within you." 

God is your only Mind, your only direct source of inspiration...right now.  And God is Truth.  So, the only place you are going to find your Truth, is to go within....to listen deeply for that still small voice that has always been there.  It is quietly urging you to let Love lead you, to listen to your heart, and act with courage.  

If you want to bask in the soft glow of indirect light...that's fine.  It's even beautiful and sweet, companionable and comforting.  

But, if you want to grow, you have to go to the Source. You need to have a direct, immediate relationship with the Divine. 


It may not be as soft, gentle or easy to look into, as indirect light...the sun rarely is.  But it will awaken the day in you, invigorate your purpose, inspire transformation, grow you "in grace," give you new courage, and resurrect hope. 

shared with Love, 

Kate

Even though I will always have a soft spot in my heart for Cat Steven's version, I've grown to love this Mandy Moore recording of "Moonshadow" too...  

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

"Like the willow...dancing in the wind"

You know me,
I like to see
just how far I can bend
I'm like the willow
out on the open field
dancing 'round in the wind

- Chad Elliott

When I was a girl we lived in a house with a big willow tree in the front yard.  Its branches hung to the ground,  often pooling in the grass or trailing like hundreds of delicate fingers across the lawn.  Sitting close to the trunk underneath her cascading tendrils of soft spring green, I was in my favorite place on earth.  With a book and a box of "red hots" (those little cinnamon candies), a pillow and a blanket (when it was cool) I could spend hours and hours.  For me it was like sitting near the ocean or by a babbling brook.  In a soft breeze her branches would gently brush the grass and the sound was as soothing as a mother's "hush, hush" leaving me feeling sleepy and safe.  But my favorite times were when the winds were strong and I could feel her trunk bend and stretch behind my back.  The sound of her branches dancing through the air was a symphony of woodwinds and strings with ballerinas whose slender and flexible bodies flew across my grassy stage choreographed by a brilliant, but  unseen Director.

We also had Dutch elms whose sturdy straight trunks and scratchy bark were strong and straight and great for scratching an itchy shoulder blade, but I never identitfied with them.  Oaks seemed very unapproachable, almost professor-like and maples were too pretty to actually snuggle up with. 

I was a willow lover as a child…but then I yet to meet an aspen…. an event that would pull at my tree heartstrings and leave me with divided affections.  But I digress….

Willows have given me a mental model for responding to the winds of circumstance that seem to swirl through my human experience with every changing velocity.  I have learned to bend and sway knowing that what holds me secure is not a windless environment, or the strength of my own "hold" on things (willows have pretty shallow root systems), but it is God's hold on me that makes me feel safe in the dance.  God has
designed me to be a root-based feeder, I am always reaching deeper and deeper towards the source of my life's sustenance…the water and minerals found in the soil.  And as a photosynthesizing organism,  I am always reaching towards the light source that allows me to translate those same minerals and water into trunk fiber, branches, sap and leaves.  The pull of the sun and the pull of the water holds me erect, while allowing me to be flexible.

These are laws of nature and as  Mary Baker Eddy avers in
Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures, "All nature teaches God's love to man."

The laws of tropism, "the involuntary response of an organism or one of its parts toward a stimulus, such as light, heat or water" have taught me so so much about my relationship to God and His love for me…its constancy, its security, and its reliability.  I rely on it as an imperative...I am secure in knowing that I can trust my involuntary response to the pull of God's presence in my life, giving me spiritual focus. 

Phototropism...the leaf's involuntary turning towards the light…reminds me that my desire for truth, for good, is not a choice, but is the very nature of my being.  As a mother, understanding this law allows me to rest in the certainty not only of God's pull on my own childrens' hearts, but on the hearts and desires of their friends, teachers, and those "strangers" they may meet on their life's journey.   Everyone one of us has an involuntary impulsion working in us, compelling us to turn towards the light…towards goodness, honesty, and affection.

Geotropism, "the involuntary plant growth or movement in response to gravity" reminds me each day that no matter what my spiritual path may look like, there is a divine imperative operating in me.  It is an irresistable demand always urging me to dig deeper, grow stronger as I stand ready and willing to flex and bend with the winds of change.

Hydrotropism, "the involuntary growth of a plant's roots towards a water source" assures me that my thirst for the truth that refreshes my withering hopes, the love that comforts me in times of trial, and the desire to live which keeps me going forward even when the world seems dark and cold...will never wane.  I am not making a choice.  I am not deciding to hope, or to dream, or to love or to live…it is God's law of spiritual tropism operating unspent in me, and mine, and all.

It is only because I know and trust these divine laws, laws that are painted out for me on the canvas of nature's classroom, that I can yield, and bend, and sway with the wind.  I dance for Him, I dance with Him, I dance because He is calling my roots deeper and deeper while causing my arms to reach for His light. 

This divine imperative is impartial and universal.  It is working without preference or consent in my children and your children, in mothers in Darfur and workers receiving pink slips in Detroit  It is the very life force in our loved ones who are receiving chemotherapy in Boston, husbands on each side of the firing lines in Beirut, boy soldiers in Sudan, religious extremists around the world, presidential candidates and college students on Spring Break in Antigua or skiers on slopes in Colorado.  We are all governed and held by laws of divinity so reliable that we can bend and sway with the winds of human change and uncertainty…dancing to the music of Her "hush, hush" or His "Celebrate good times"...without fear.
Kate