Showing posts with label kingdom of heaven. Show all posts
Showing posts with label kingdom of heaven. Show all posts

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

"and I can see it in you..."

"It's in the blooming of an orchid
It's in the baby when she talks
It's in the sugar of a maple
And in silence of a hawk…
It's in your hungry neighbor
It's in the digging of a shrew
It's in the belly of the Buddha
And I can see it in you…"

Joe Crookston

It's the fourth day of March.  It's Super Tuesday II. Primaries are being held in Texas, Ohio, Vermont, and Rhode Island.  Here in Missouri it's a Winter Wonderland.  Big, fluffy snowflakes are drifiting down from a dove gray sky blanketing the city in silence.  There is a blustery wind sending swirls of visible cold around the ankles of students braving their way from apartments and co-ops to the corner coffeehouse.  But our family is almost cocooned in the warm smells of chocolate chip cookies baking in the oven and a vanilla candle near the stairs…the sound of the twins' laughter in the playroom and folk music seeping out from under Jeff's office door. 

It feels like the best parts of Christmas have been resurrected today.  The warmth of family and baking, the sweet sacredness of gratitude, the stillness of winter's promise…a child being born in a manger.  Today has that sense of quietness.  As if to remind me that underneath all this snow and cold there is a miracle growing…a small bulb has been sleeping -- waiting for just the right moment when warmth and light and the song of robins will call it to the breakfast table of Spring. 

I feel that promise today.  I sense that for all of us, there is a silent, unseen something calling us to a greater awakening…to rise and open our eyes to all that is budding and blossoming in consciousness…right now.

In 1994 some colleagues and I began witnessing a conscious stirring in collective human thought…an awareness of the inherent internal hunger for spirituality.  New books were being written and published that encouraged readers to probe and explore the unseen and unknown, television hosts were beginning to address the inner live of their guests, films were being produced with themes of transformation, redemption, forgiveness.

By 1996 we were fully engaged in this quest for all things spiritual and by the year 2000 we no longer had to convince one another that prayer had a radical impact on the our lives…it was no longer a question…it was a generally accepted paradigm for 87% of those polled.  When thinking back on that fateful days in September, 2001...the senseless acts of violence launched in New York and Washington, DC...events that held our hearts hostage, I am so grateful that we were a community of thinkers prepared to pray.  We were already primed by this hunger for something deeper, able to respond from a core of spiritual beliefs that had been nurtured by  whatever faith tradition or spiritual practice we had embraced.  And we did.  We responded from that core and discovered the best in ourselves.

Today the attacks on our peace are quite different…more subtle perhaps…but no less aggressive and frightening.  Unemployment in the double digits, millions of people losing their homes, a recession looming, and a health care crisis that for many keeps them awake at night often wondering what terror might lie hidden beneath the skin…their own or that of a loved one.

Our reponses and solutions could be the same today when terror rages within, as it was almost seven years ago…this time, instead of just starting with prayer and then looking outside of ourselves for a sense of peace, safety, security and hope, we can return to those core practices that gave us such direction and empowerment in the days following 911...and stay there. Perhaps we could continue by taking down the fences and boundaries that leaves us on an "us" and "them" playing field. 

What would change today if we were to treat everyone like out neighbor.  What if we were to think about our co-worker...whose child is ill requiring her to miss work...with the same compassion we showed the mother who hadn't seen her missing son since the Trade Towers fell and our hearts almost leapt out of our chest because we were so eager to extend our love to her...from wherever we were across this land.  What if the man who lost his job because of plant layoffs were treated with the same willingness to "pitch in" as the firefighter who was injured that day in September saving lives.  What if we were to pray for the millions of homeowners facing the loss of their homes as we did for those Trade Center neighbors who were displaced in the wake of jet fuel smoke over Manhattan.

We are all one.  We all live out from the same place…the kingdom of heaven.  We all have one supreme leader…a divinely good God.  We are citizens of one race…humanity.  We all have the same hopes…to love and be loved…to feel that we make a difference in the world, that our purpose is clear, and that we are valued for what we do.

We all have access to the same space of silence within…the place where God speaks to us of His ever-presence and love.  

So today, rather than looking to CNN or MSNBC to tell me what the state of our economic health, security or promise is…I am going deeper…I'm asking God how I can best serve Him.  Who does he need me to love, comfort, help, care for? 

There is something rising in all of us today.  It has been pushing its way through the cold soil of complacency and self-determinism, apathy and consumerism, frustration and distrust...it is strong and it is steady, it never gives up on us.   This unseen something knows the core of who we are as the children of God, it is stubbornly persistent as only hope can be…it is the very I AM in us that is springing forth…rising and rising to burst through the soil and breathe the light.

When we are silent we can hear it breathing in us, we can feel the shifting of the soil around our heart, we can smell it like scent of a crocus bud still striving beneath the dark rich earth.  Today I am grateful for the silence of the snow, the quiet of the frozen ground where something beautiful and grand is growing strong.  I am ready for Spring.

"O little town of Bethlehem,
   How still we see thee lie;
Above thy deep and dreamless sleep
   The silent stars go by;
Yet in thy dark streets shineth
   The everlasting Light;
The hopes and fears of all the years
   Are met in thee tonight.

O morning stars, together
   Proclaim the holy birth,
And praises sing to God the King,
   And peace to men on earth;
Where charity stands watching
   And faith holds wide the door,
The dark night wakes, the glory breaks,
   And Christmas comes once more.

How silently, how silently,
   The wondrous gift is given;
So God imparts to human hearts
   The blessings of His heaven.
No ear may hear his coming,
   But in this world of sin,
Where meekness will receive him, still
   The dear Christ enters in.

- Phillips Brooks

The Christ in springing forth from the soil of our hearts...from the kingdom of heaven...Bethlehem in each of us...each moment...no one is left out.
Kate

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Living with a Kingdom within

Always remember you have within you
the strength, the patience and the passion
to reach for the stars
to change the world.

- Harriet Tubman

This quote has been sitting on my desk (okay, the sideboard in our dining room where I sit to write) for two weeks.  It is typed, exactly as you see it above, as the inspirational header for a letter to donors from our local Children's Museum...one of the best in the world.

I have been looking at it because I have needed this reminder that
what I need to take the next steps in my life are already deep within me like a clear, still, constant well of water...fathomless and reliable.  Jesus referred to this depth of being within as "the kingdom of heaven"....I like thinking that there is an entire, self-sustaining kingdom within me operating under the divine guidance of a benevolent, wise and generous King.  That His proclamations of purpose, movement, stillness, service...are offered to me, His waiting subject.....eager and ready to serve Him...with vision and affection that inspire my loyalty, obedience, passion, courage and vigor.

It is all
already within me.  I just have to listen, with my face turned up towards the balcony where He delivers his messages of mission and purpose from....and I will always know what to do....well-prepared by my love for Him to serve him with devotion and grace...humility and honor.  He will place the armor, which bears his seal on my life and I will be able to carry out that mission safely and wisely.

So how can I know what my mission is....I have to know the language that is indigenous in this Kingdom.   What is the language spoken in this place, by my King....is it the language of fear, as in "If I don't go to this college, I am afraid that I may never succeed" or is it Love as in "I love theater arts and this school has a great Theater Arts department that would really give me the opportunity to share my talents".  Is the language spoken in the kingdom one of dissatisfaction "I am so sick of this job that I just
have to get out of here to be happy" or one of satisfaction, "I have had such a complete experience with this job that I feel that I have learned all that I can learn and blessed the department as fully as I can and am so eager to move forward towards new opportunities for growth and sharing my love for this (or another) industry, trade, art form or discipline."

I always ask myself if the message that is being delivered from the balcony (in my thinking) is consistent with the character and nature, language and vision of the King.  Does it encourage me to trust Him, does it afford me the opportunity to grow in grace -
"patience, meekness, love and good deeds"  - is it LOVE based...or does it try to use fear as a manipulative tool for getting me off course....and fear is a language that we just don't use, give attention to, understand or comprehend in this Kingdom.

I like having a Kingdom within me....As a young girl I was fascinated with anything "Arthur"....after Camelot (the film) came out in theatres I was even more obsessed. I read anything that included tales of noblesse oblige, the Round Table, and a kingdom where it "never rained till after sundown...July and August cannot be too hot ". My first formal dress I designed to look like Guinevere's wedding gown in the movie. It was a long sheath made from a heavy metallic fabric, with belled sleeves and a fine chain belt resting just below my waist. My hair was haloed in a thin garland of holly (it was a Christmas dance) and I wore ballet slippers that allowed me to walk with the quiet dignity of a queen...or so I thought. In reality I was a high school sophmore with soggy pink ballet slippers and my beautiful silvery dress was so heavy I could barely slow dance...forget about doing anything more energetic....but, I digress....

Those years of loving all things Camelot and Arthur gave me many mental images for considering this Kingdom within. I think about it as being a Kingdom that never sleeps....there is always something going on there.  When I am resting, the cook is up before dawn preparing the stillness that will sustain me through the day, the guards are at the gate keeping watch and admitting only those messengers that serve the King's mission and purpose.  I love thinking that the tailor is mending the garments of praise, and the panoply (the tunic worn by the standard bearer with the King's crest on it which announces the purpose of our crusade) of Love.  I am emboldened by the thought that every step I take on the cobbled paths in this kingdom have been worn smooth by the faithful feet of other servants, knights, maidens and guards, princesses and minstrels. I especially love thinking that a wise Sage, like the Merlin archetype is giving me the wisdom that will protect me from foolishness and folly.

So....today, I wait within the walls of the Kingdom, serving in the scullery or preparing for another mission, to share the King's love throughout the countryside, as his courier....currying my horse, preparing my pack....ready for the call of the trumpeters from the King's chambers...the voice of Love in my heart... signaling that a new message, a mission, is being delivered from the balcony.... I think I will go to the foot of the cross and wait to hear what He has in store for us today.  I am ready to serve my King...
K

In short, there's simply not
a more congenial spot
for happily-ever-aftering
than here in Camelot.

- Alan Jay Lerner