Sunday, May 30, 2010

"Daddy here I am again..."

"Daddy here I am again,
Will you take me back tonight?
I went and made the world my friend,
and it left me high and dry."

- Casting Crowns

I was listening to Casting Crowns' "Prodigal," and remembered a daydream I'd had a few weeks ago. A daydream in which the parable of the Prodigal Son (from the 15th chapter of Luke's gospel) came to life for me in a new way, and gave me new questions to consider. Don't you just love it when that happens? 

As an aside, did you know that the word "prodigal" never appears in the King James' version of the Bible?  I discovered that the word means, "having or giving something on a lavish scale," and that this word we so quickly associate with an errant, selfish boy, actually has its root in the Latin word, "prodigus" which means "lavish."   I'm thinking that I might want to consider reclaiming this word for God, and calling it the parable of the Pridigal Father, as the one who lavishes understanding and compassion on his family.

Anyway, back to my daydream.  In it, I was standing at the end of a dusty road, quietly listening to a conversation between the boy's father and mother.  Her heart was afraid of his hope...afraid of how it might disappoint him...and her.

Come in old man...

He is

long ago
with his

I send your meals
to you as
you sit here

have a son...
a faithful son,
a good boy, 
one who works beside you,
and asks for nothing

Can't you see how
waits for your
a place in your heart...
while you
wait at the end of the road
searching the
some sign of
the errant one.

Let him go.
Let him be a feckless
substance on
wine, and women,
and games of chance in the
town square.

I cannot let him go.
He is
precious in my sight.
He is
a me.
He is fighting for his
for his right to
live with
personal vision.

I know he may have
made mistakes,
but he is trying
to make us
proud of him
by doing it all
all that
he thinks
we think
could not do without
our help.

We taught him to
trust his heart...
and our God. 
Now, we need to trust
our God
and His love for him

Yes, you are right,
he does not
choose my fields today.
He does not
want to stand beside me
in rows
ephah of grain.

But he only asked for
the portion he thought was
his birthright,
and the freedom to
explore his
or his brother
weighing in.

I may not understand
his path,
he is still
our son.

He is still the boy
you sang to sleep.
He is still the boy
whose laughter I love to hear
as it dances
in the wind, and swirls around
me as I work...making my
day lighter, and my
heart smile.

He is still our son's

know you,
wait for him,
I see you standing by the well,
shielding your eyes from the
as you scan the horizon
for a sign.
We can trust
the Father of us all
a plan,
a reason,
a purpose for him...
is teaching him grand lessons...
grace...and will
guide  him

I will be watching.
I will be waiting.
I want to hear his story.

I want to
see his face
Hear his voice
Watch him weep in your arms.
Hug his brother.
Share his story....
so others will
not be afraid
to come home.

"Not all who wander

from one who as been waited for...with Love,

Kate Robertson, CS

"Not all who wander are lost."  -  J.R Tolkein

1 comment:

  1. Anonymous11:49 AM

    I was thinking about your blog this morning and how inspiring and helpful your stories are to read. They give me and I am sure countless others hope and inspiration to keep going and to not ever give up, because your life defines the meaning of perseverance, patience, and compassion. Anyway this quote from S&H came to mind when I think about your stories and poems and how they have helped me.

    "Millions of unprejudiced minds--simple seekers for Truth, weary wanderers, athirst in the desert--are waiting and watching for rest and drink. Give them a cup of cold water in Christ's name, and never fear the consequences."

    That is what you do you give all of us seekers a cup of cold water, and Kate it is always refreshing, renewing and satisfying.
    Thank you so much because honestly without your blog I would not have gotten in touch with you and I would not have been able to take all the steps I have taken. God is good... love you!!