"for God is all, and Christ the way;
our meek and bold Defender,
has cleft the night and lo, the day
bursts forth in might splendor..."
L.C.Nourse
I had always wanted to be an attorney. A civil liberties attorney to be specific. I wanted to argue cases in defense of human rights and social justice. I wanted to stand with those who were facing intimidation and persecution -- before a judge, and a jury of their peers.
Don't get me wrong, teaching school, book and media publishing, practicing spiritual healing, and volunteering in my community, were all wonderful chapters in my life story, but someday - sigh. Yes, someday I would graduate from law school, take the bar exam, and hang my shingle. I couldn't imagine anything more fulfilling than defending the innocent, and defeating injustice.
Of course, there was no question -- I would continue practicing spiritual healing part-time -- weekends and evenings. Hadn't I always held more than one job? This chapter would be no different.
Everything seemed poised for finally entertaining this dream a few decades ago. I was between secondary careers. I thought I finally had it all figured out. I would shift my practice of spiritual healing to a more part-time schedule. A schedule that would blend with the demands of law school.
Having passed the LSATs, I found a law school within a reasonable commute of our home. I filled out the application, and was accepted. All I needed to do was send in the enrollment deposit - which would hold my place while I sought financial aid, loans, scholarships, grants, etc. I was ready to do whatever it took. But that's right where God jumped in and stopped me in my tracks.
It was a clear, crisp winter day. I had spent the morning studying Scripture, praying for clear direction, and listening for inspiration. It seemed as if the way was clear for taking the next step. I pulled my checkbook from the desk drawer, wrote the modest deposit check to the University for what - at the time - seemed to be so much more than we could afford. I popped it in the pre-addressed envelope, and pulled on my jacket before heading down the stairs. I almost out the door and on my way to the post office. It was just a baby step, but I was ready to take it.
As I headed down the long flight of stairs - from our loft to the street level entrance of our building - an inner voice suggested, "Why don't you look up the word "Comforter" in Strong's Bible Concordance before you leave?"
In my Bible study that morning there had been a citation that included a reference to the promised "Comforter." As I'd read it, it had occured to me that I had never really gotten a solid sense of the word's meaning in the original language - as it related to the context of Jesus' message.
At the time, I had been too busy thinking about law school, and whether we could afford for me to write that deposit check. Much too busy in my listening for direction, to stop and grab the concordance off the shelf. I'd do it later. And here it was, later. But now I needed to get to the post office, or I might never - again - have the confidence to even begin thinking that I deserved to live out this dream.
As I continued down the stairs, and placed my hand on the doorknob, it was as if someone had wired that doorknob with an electrical current. As I grabbed it, the voice came again. And this time, it was so forceful that it seemed almost audible, "Go look up the word Comforter!" Well, I may be headstrong, but I am not disobedient.
I sprinted up the stairs. Now in a hurry to do what I was being strongly urged to do -- since I still needed to get to the post office before the end of the day so that the deposit would reach the University before the deadline. So, I pulled the heavy volume off the shelf, quickly finding the related Hebrew, Greek, and Aramaic definitions of the word "Comforter."
As my eyes fell on the last definition, I almost gasped. It read, "counsel for the defense". I sat back, heavily, in my chair, and folded my hands in my lap. A stillness descended over my shoulders like a soft mantle of clarity and peace.
"This is the kind of Law I really want to practice," I thought. "This is the Law I believe in and love. I can work in this Law office forever."
I could see that God, divine Love was the only Law. And that the Christ was the Comforter, -- the "counsel for the defense." I could be working for this law office from that day forward. From then on, my spiritual practice was no longer modeled after a healthcare provider/clinic, but a law firm -- no longer therapeutic, but constitutional.
It was easy to set aside my dream-practice with the American Civil Liberties Union. For me, this was the ultimate practice of defending human rights. This would be like clerking for the Chief Justice of the Supreme Court. And yes, I knew there would be moments when I would be the receptionist, then the stenographer, the bookkeeper, the public relations liaison, the office janitor, the law clerk - with her head buried in the law library. But I also knew that the Christ would always be the head of the firm -- the one and only Chief Counsel.
As I looked at the books lying open on my desk that day -- the Bible and Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures by Mary Baker Eddy -- I realized that I had a complete law library sitting right in front of me. The Bible gave me a complete and comprehensive resume of precedent setting cases to cite in the court of Spirit. And Science and Health told me how to write a brief -- a treatment, in defense of man's inalienable spiritual right to freedom from sin, sickness and death.
Years earlier, I had taken two weeks of class-instruction with an experienced and wise "law professor," a teacher of Christian Science. This "law school," had fully prepared me for hanging my shingle. I would work for the one, and only, original Public Defender.
I never sent that check to the University. And I have never regretted it. I committed my life to an unwavering career in spiritual law, from that day forward.
In the ensuing decades, I have enjoyed a rich and satisfying career in this practice of spiritual Law. Each client who has crossed the threshold of this office has had the benefit of being lovingly cared for by our Chief Counsel - divine Truth and Love. As the receptionist I hope that I have received each client warmly and with grace. As His paralegal, I have taken careful notes that I could go over with Him, in prayerful consultation in His chambers. As His law clerk, I have never found the Bible wanting, as I searched for a precendent-setting cases to cite to when defending our client's divine rights in the courtroom of Spirit. As His billing clerk -- well, I am still learning much -- as this is the job that I have struggled with most.
I love this office. I have a great boss who cares for His clients' spiritual liberties with a Father-like devotion to justice, and a Mother-like perseverence in defense of Her children's divine rights. I serve a Chief Justice who never leaves anyone languishing in prison because of an unjust sentence. And even when a harsh sentence might seems reasonable, He lovingly reminds us all that justice is always "the handmaid of mercy."
So, it's back to work.
with Love,
Kate Robertson, CS - Esq.
Kate
once again, it's apparent we have the same Mind!!! when I considered going to law school, I listed all the qualities of a good lawyer (ethical, moral, defends their clients, etc.) and then realized it was all the same stuff as a CS practitioner. that's when I started taking that kind of work.
ReplyDeleteyou and me, kiddo, joined at the mental hip.
Great post.
ReplyDeleteI wonder if you'd expand your analogy and figure out what the Christian Science nurse parallels in this court of Spirit. . I'm not familiar enough with all the positions.
Essentially a CS nurse is a practitioner as well, but there is that aspect of 'health care' that distinguishes it.
HI Dean...good to meet you..
ReplyDeletehmmm....since I feel that my role is multi-functional in the Chief Counsel's office, I would include nurse as one more office within the law practice...I do believe that the office of "nurse" (like practitioner) is a provision that EVERY member is responsible for serving in...since both have their mandate as it appears in Article VIII "Guidance for Members" in The Manual of the Mother Church.
Almost like serving in Mrs. Eddy's household...you didn't get to choose what tasks you would accept...what role you would play...you said "yes" and then you did whatever you were asked.
Serving in the law office of the Chief Counsel is the same to me...you say "yes" and then you do whatever is needed...nurse, receptionist, practitioner, billing coordinator, law clerk...whatever is needed. There are many days that I am handing a tissue to a patient so that he or she can wipe a tear, bringing a glass of water, giving a hug...taking care of their very practical needs at the moment...nursing...
just some thoughts
analogies and metaphors only go so far...