"Dear God...Who am I?"

As a child, I grew up afraid of doing wrong. I was afraid that if I broke a rule, or law, that I would lose the love and care of a God who was just sitting back, waiting for me to mess up.

I thought of the Ten Commandments as a set of regulations that told me what I wasn't allowed to do.

A conversation I had with God some years ago, opened my eyes to a fresh, new, and for me, healing view of the Ten Commandments. Suddenly, they weren't just a list of edicts, rules, directives and laws...or even choices - but promises. They were, in fact, God's way of describing me...to me. 

God is telling us who we are, and who we aren't (and won't ever be). And since He is the only power, we aren't even able to create a different selfhood than the one that he has already created. We have an identity that He continues to maintain with perfect attention and precision...accurate and intact.  Here's my version of that conscious correspondence with God:


Dear God:

I need to know who I am.  Who did you create me to be?  What were/are your expectations for my life, my thinking, my choices, and behavior?  What do you want me to do with this gift of life, that you have bestowed?

your loving daughter,

Kate


Dear Kate:

I love you, and because I love you, I have created you for only one purpose....to love Me (and your brothers and sisters), completely and without question.   The rest you are to leave up to me.    In order for you to do this, I have made you perfect. I have made you complete - wanting nothing.  You have everything you need to accomplish this task, to fulfill this mission.  In fact, since you asked, let me tell you exactly who you are, and why this is all so doable. Let me tell you why you aren't even tempted to be, or do, anything outside of my plan, purpose, or promise for you. 

I have made you to love me.  I have given you a heart that only longs for goodness, for love, truth and beauty.  This heart is designed to actually search for this goodness, love, beauty and truth...everywhere, in everything, to search high and low for my face in all things. 

Therefore you won't have any other Gods besides me.  You won't have any other creators, minds, sources of intelligence, affection, will...feared or imagined...they don't exist and you aren't powerful enough to create them ...I promise...this is how I have created you.

I also promise that You won't even be tempted to make unto yourself any graven images...I have already created everything you could ever need or want...in fact, since I am the only Mind, I am the only source of your wants, your desires.  Your desires are my gracious means for preparing your heart for what I have prepared for you. 

Speaking of our relationship, I know that you are aware that (at this writing) I have only called myself by one name...that is "I AM"...so because we love eachother neither of us would ever use this name, "I AM", in vain.  When you say "I am...." you will always follow it with a statement about yourself that is true according to the way I made you, that honors the integrity of our relationship.  You are only ever even inclined to say "I am good" or "I am honest" or "I am intelligent".  You would never promote a self that is separate from me, or refer to that self in a way that is futile and leads to nothing of value and promise. 

Okay, so here are some other descriptions that I have of you, my beloved and beautiful daughter:

You will (I promise... and I keep my promises) remember the Sabbath day to keep it holy, I promise.  How could you ever forget that I put my benediction on that last step, that completion of creation and said, "It is very good."   I am the only Mind you have and you can't forget.  You will remember it is done, and it is good and that it is holy, wholly complete, finished, every tiny detail perfectly taken care of....I promise.  

Aren't you happy that you can rest in knowing that you will always honor your father and your mother...you don't have to worry that you will forget and do something that doesn't honor Me, your Father-Mother God, your only creator....because I am omnipotent, all powerful....you don't have the power or the will to usurp my authority and do something that will dishonor our tender loving relationship with eachother or the relationship you have with the mom and dad I have appointed for you to grow with in your experience,  this relationship with them (and all who represent those qualities of respect, nurturing, guidance in your expereince) allows you to express that love and trust which we share in practical and tangible ways.

Okay here are a few no brainers based on the above promises and descriptions I have given you of yourself:

You won't kill...you won't kill another's joy, promise, hope or peace.  You are like me and I love the beauty of the life that I have brought forth.  I know you do to because that is the way I made you.  So go ahead and love life to it's fullest.  Have life and have it more abundantly.  You will never even be tempted to kill even your own potential for good in this world....or anothers! 

You won't commit adultery...I made you singular in design...there are not versions of you.  I only have one mold for my image and likeness and its design remains intact.  You have only one will and it is "Thy will be done". I am with you at all times helping you remember who you are and what promises and vows I have given you to protect you and to keep your integrity intact.

You will not steal...why would you?  You have Me for your Father-Mother.  You have a Father-Mother who is all-powerful, always present and has all the resources of the universe at His disposal to be used to bless and to support Her dearly loved child of promise.  There is nothing good I will ever hold back from you. You trust me.  You know that you have no need to steal because I love you so much and want the very best for you.  You will never steal another's joy, peace of mind, hope for the future, confidence or gifts....you are a joint heir and you know that your common Parent has a limitless supply of good to bestow on all Her children.

You won't ever bear false witness against your neighbor...I haven't given you a heart for it.  You love your neighbor and you want only good for him/her.  You are so busy fulfilling my purpose for you, and it is so much fun, so wonderful, and so rich with blessing that you have no time to talk about others...you are to busy talking to them about Me and how wonderful your common Parent is in blessing, guiding and inspiring your life with purpose and goodness.

You won't covet your neighbor's wife, manservant, maidservant, ox, ass...well, really not anything that is your neighbors.   Why would you, based on all the above.  I love you...do you get that!  I have created you so perfect...so complete and whole...so without the need for want or covetousness.  You celebrate, joyfully acknowledge, your neighbor's abundance, your neighbor's good.  You appreciate it, good, wherever you see it.  You know that your appreciation of that goodness anywhere is an indication of your conscious awareness of it...in your own consciousness...and therefore it is already yours!!!   If you are conscious of it...you include it!  It is already consciously yours.  Trust it to take form in your experience.

Basically, that's my description of you.  This is how I made you.  This is who you are and I promise that I will never leave you.  I will maintain the integrity of this promise...the perfection of this creation.  I have the all the power in the universe, I am ever aware, always present and most importantly...I LOVE YOU!!!!   Now get busy with loving your neighbor.

Your loving Father-Mother,

God

"All that is made is the work of God, and all is good.  We leave this brief, glorious history of spiritual creation (as stated in the first chapter of Genesis) in the hands of God, not of man, in the keeping of Spirit, not matter, -- joyfully acknowledging now and forever God's supremacy, omnipotence, and omnipresence."

                                             - M. B. Eddy (Science & Health, pg. 521)




Dear God:

Wow...thanks!

all my love,

Kate