Forgive me Father

please
forgive
me
Father for

i have sinned....

i have judged others who
stood on this holy
shaking
ground with You
and told them
to walk
away

i have
turned my back
on their pain
and let them
bear this
child alone in a
wilderness of
judgment
and doubt

i have forgotten
to see You
in every moment...in
every instance....
of
love

i stopped
healing...
knowing Your presence...
and tried to
change the
course of
hearts...
Your province...
Your domain

I stand here
in awe of Your power...
Your insistence...
the imperative of
Your will
in my
life...
and theirs

i stand here small
and frightened and
humbled by
Your
grace
that
cares enough
about a
sinner...someone
who could even
imagine Your
absence...Your separateness...
from another's
life,
decisions,
choices of the heart...
to let
her
feel

to let her
know
that You were
always there
You were always the Cause
You were always at the
core
shaking
convention,
rattling
comfort,
disturbing the
false convenient
peace
of
self-righteous
indignation
because
You love…
we love

because You are All
we long for all
not just some
percentage
of
your
good…
a portion
of Your
love…but
the
All-in-allness of
Your Love in our loving
in our lives

did I think
that only
some deserve
to know the depth
of Your
Love
reflected in love....

please
forgive me Father
for
I have seen love
separated from
Love

and judged
Your hand
in
their
hearts....

I am sorry




K